Yesterday was a roller coaster, for sure. For whatever reason, Matt's absence was felt more acutely this year. For me, I think it was because I want to be able to share these amazing new changes in my life, and can't. He's been gone 36 years and I still miss him. Funny how that works. Maybe I miss the potential that was Matt, or the memory of our brief time together, and the dynamic personality and intelligence that was already manifesting when he made his exit.I mean, how can you really miss someone you only knew for a couple years, right?
Wrong. If he was your brother, or your son, you miss him. Time is not a factor.
I was propped up by contact with friends and family, and had the distraction of watching history being made last night.
It's been a really profound and emotionally exhausting week, and I'm looking forward to hosting my second football party of the year tonight, with good food, good friends and maybe* some alcohol. And some girlfriend time for the long weekend.
* No "maybe" about it. We're seeing out summer with margaritas and daiquiris.